arise and shine

My life has taken a trajectory in which I did not anticipate within the next 5 years of my life.  I've done a lot of things I didn't think I could do on my own, yet I did them. All with the hope of learning and loving the God of this world more.

I knew life would be different after the World Race, after the internship at Maranatha.
However, I didn't think it would be like this.

I've dreamt seldom about this intimate intensity, and longing for companionship that is said to complete you or somehow "fulfill" your loneliness bucket. I've given very little but deep thought about these kinds of things.

While the last leg of the internship in Maxwell, NE had me busy and thinking about the future, I wasn't quite thinking of anything like this. College and future adventures that I could do on my own or with friends were swirling in my mind like a windy day. Constant. Then I met Kole David Brewer, a man who drove me a little crazy at first, yet brought me to life by showing me who I am through his bold stature and personality; both encapsulating a man after God's heart and his own passions--many of which included looking good naked (CrossFit, eating clean, relaxing...etc).

He gave me words, words that were encouraging to my wandering soul. I knew them already, but there's something about when people finally see those deep things that make you tick, or sing for joy. He found them and pointed them out. He gave them life with a laugh or presented moments to use them for better. What the cuss happened to me? I was seeing life with him as the next adventure; the upcoming and forever kind. It looked like he did too, with all the flirting that abundantly came from his speech and actions.

I married the crap out of him. He's one of a kind. He's my Tarzan. The guy that has the ability to make me laugh more than cry (thankfully) and be my best friend through it all.

I challenge myself to love him. Similarly, like Christ loved the church; fully and holding nothing back, especially when we are at odds.

These are just a bunch of avenues of which he expresses love-----
> He often makes me coffee the way I like it; Black & Fresh.
< He makes sure I am warm enough by bringing an extra jacket or reminding me to bring my own.
> He prays with me, leading the prayer and giving me space to join in unashamedly.
< He shows me how to respectfully live life by looking out for others needs first.
> He will turn on my favorite music randomly or most often when I am feeling off my rocker.
< He is helpful when it comes to the kitchen, he makes delicious food and loves to make it.
> He goes to work out of love and makes money so that we may live with enough money to buy good coffee.
<He encourages me when I feel down about life, work or school. Always giving a purposeful response.
>He sacrifices his need to finish things that when I come home he drops everything to hold me while I tell him about my day.
< He cherish's our sex life and makes sweet love to me.

> He is aware of my mood and gives attention to what I need or don't need at that moment.
< He is always providing me with answers or discussions to all my theological \ life questions.
> He calls me "angel", and somehow every time he tells me, I know he loves me.

This adventure called life with him has been a sweet time of learning and loving God, others, myself and him.

I am thankful for where I am today, and look forward to what life looks like for both of us bold souls in the next 50 years (sometimes I hope we'll be dead so we can just go hang out with Jesus on a fluffy cloud and watch the ocean roar and the dolphins jump with a cup of coffee in hand as the sun sets).


Peace out.